I will throw the weed away.. It ruins my cognition. I want enhanced cognitioN!.. I'm starting to want to be more sober..

I bought noopept to help with my memory... And kratom extract + Kava tea extract for relaxation instead of benzos...

The hike was nice and relaxing/helps me focus with the coffee but I was a little annoyed about how isolated I am.. I told my mom that.. Idk about focusing on the small things because I want to figure out the universe.. She said that people go crazy doing that...

I need to see my psychiatrist before I go to the island and visit my family. It stresses me out because I need to get refills for my meds. I need a haircut, to set everything up.. It's stressful. Everything is stressful. There's so many things that I'm not even thinking about - I can't think of everything at the same time. It's like swimming in a pool of swirly thoughts and grabbing them.

But I'm better than I was yesterday...