I don't know where to start. I don't even know if I am in the right category, but what the hell. Any admin who reads this, please just move it to the right category lol. Anyway, the main reason I am here is because once again I am sick. Last Aug 19, 2021 I got sick but then I think it was just some bug because I still had the ability to smell and taste. I got tested Aug 23rd for Covid and it was negative, thank goodness. But then just last Sunday, Sept. 5th at night, I suddenly felt sick again, and this time it is accompanied with a cough and cold. Monday I was okay the whole day, temperature was 36.6 (97.8 for our American readers) and I still had the sense of smell and taste. The next day, I was having fever already of 38.1 (around 100.5F) to 38.3 (100.9). It even reached the highest of 38.4 (101). That's when I started to not have any taste. I took some tea and I couldn't even taste it. Ate some food then, still no taste but then I still had the sense of smell. Now, the very next day, Wednesday Sept 8th, that's when I started to lose both. I couldn't smell anything even the menthol rub/Vicks, and I couldn't taste anything. Deep in my heart and gut I know I have Covid cause of that. And until now, Thursday, Sept 9th, 2021, I still can't smell anything and can't taste anything. I ate a bunch of oranges but I did not taste anything at all. So, since now you know my back story, as I sit here thinking I have Covid, I can't help think who else I might have infected at home. Now my mom starts to cough and I am scared that I might have infected her without me knowing I had Covid already! (not yet completely sure for I have not gotten my test yet again, I am just assuming I am) . I am just here, sitting in my room, isolating myself from everyone, I can't help but cry that it is my fault and that I could also really have Covid based on just my symptoms. I hardly go out, the last time I went out was only to the pharmacy and that was months ago. All I am praying for right now that I did not infect my family whatsoever. It would be better to just be me rather than the rest of my family. I don't have a family of my own anyway. I am slightly anxious and worried that I REALLY might have Covid and I feel it in my gut that I do. Then again, if I do, I'd rather it stop with me and not infect my family. I don't even know if y'all will read this or if anyone is even interested. But anyhoo.. I just needed somewhere to right it down and I thought to share it here since I've always found support here. If you have reached until this point, thank you for listening and please hope with me that this is just because I have a cold and not because of Covid. Having Covid in my country is just bad, although having Covid in general is bad. So please hope and pray with me, and thank you for reading up until here.

xoxo