My T got emotional in session yesterday. I normally look away a lot but meet her eyes every now and then. She said ”I understand Amanda that it’s hard to be vunerable, I really do” and when I looked at her she looked different. Her eyes were tearful and she really looked like she was about to cry. I looked away for a moment, I don’t even remembered what I said, if I said anything. Before she said that, I said that she always leave me, I said I was angry at her. But I mean… I know now that I’m not really angry at HER. I just don’t like the situation, it’s so hard because I’m attached to her and it hurts. It reminds me of my mom and how she always abandoned me.

Now I feel a bit torn. She always say that I can bring all my feelings in the room. But… I don’t know anymore. She should know that I’m not really angry at her. It’s just feelings from the past. I don’t know if I should say anything about it. Before I left, she asked if she could give me a hug. It was the first time. I said yes and she did, and told me that she is there for me. So I guess I shouldn’t worry, but I do… I don’t know why. Maybe because I don’t want to hurt her… and I want her to understand that I’m not mad at her, that she’s actually never let me down. But she knows this! I’ve told her. I just feel guilty I guess and at the same time, what if it had nothing to do with me? Or what if it did, what if she cares too much.

Have anyone else got a T who got really emotional and how did you feel about it? Did you address it later?