I had my appointments this morning. I had my pre op appointment for my hysterectomy. They told me to drink 20oz of water when they called a couple weeks ago. So I did. But then the technician told me go to the bathroom. And I panicked and I said “I thought this was gonna be done on my stomach.” And she said “oh. I guess they were wrong” and man I’m telling you, when you have an internal ultrasound done you’re gonna have a bad time. It was so painful. And she kept going in deeper. I kept saying ow and she asked if I wanted to continue and I said “yeah” because insurance needs this. It took like 5 minutes but it felt like 20 minutes. Taking the thing out hurt but not as much. Man am I glad I was prepared for an external one instead. I wasn’t worried at all before because I knew external ones didn’t hurt. But if I had known before that it was going to be internal I would have been a complete mess as soon as I knew I needed an ultrasound. Which was weeks ago.

Then I met with the doctor. He had me sign some things. He told me some things about the surgery. He said the surgery will be about 1.5 hours. Which I thought was a long time. I thought this type of surgery especially now with the robot was only 45 minutes. I asked him if I’d have a breathing tube and he said “yeah” I think he could sense my anxiety because he said I wouldn’t be awake when they put it in or took it out. But I was intubated during my first top surgery and I thought they only did that because the surgery was done close to my heart. My aunts boyfriend had stents put in his heart the other week and they didn’t intubate him. So I’m slightly freaked out about that.

But then I saw the dentist and I thought my mouth was a complete mess but he looked and did a couple X-rays and he said that he doesn’t see anything. Just some buildup from not going to the dentist since before Covid. He said my issue is that I’m grinding and clenching my teeth due to the severe stress I’m under. TMJ is what he specializes in. He wants to do a full cleaning and X-rays and then make me a mouth guard. I am super relived and very surprised that is all it is. But he’s really expensive. Today was $90. The cleaning and X-rays will be $300. And the mouth guard will be like $450-$500. But the whole place was nice. I go for my cleaning on September 20th.

He says I need to get rid of the stress in my life. Easier said then done. But I’m hoping my stress is gone in a couple months.