I got into an IOP that starts tonight. It is three nights a week from 5 PM to 730 PM. It is virtual. I'm not super good at Zoom but I expect I'll be an expert by the end of this. I'm nervous and excited and nervous and excited and nervous. I'll probably take some anti anxiety medication before hand because I will be pretty nervous. I'm at 45 days right now without self harm. I can't wait til I am back up to 18 months or 2 years or some good amount of time like that. But 45 days does feel pretty good. It's easier going this time around. Last time I was sweating out every day. This time there are days that go by and I don't even think of self harm. Then there are days when it is all I can think about.