I'm getting super freaked out about my IOP starting tonight. I know I wanted this. I guess fear of the unknown. Fear of the stupid technology not working right--although it worked fine on Tuesday for my T appointment so it should work for this Zoom thing. I'm super crazy tired too. And I just want to go home and chill but I can't and I can't for like a month. Every night I'll be doing something. I do wish I could work like part time or something right now but I need the money to pay my bills and I don't want work to know that this job could be done on a part time basis because then why would they pay me full time? It's day one and I already want a mental health day!