I got kinda down last night. I originally had just taken a vertigo med and a melatonin and my 160mil geodon. But then I kind of went crazy and I took 40 extra mil of Geodon, a Valium, and a second melatonin. My mom woke me up for dinner and I actually screamed when she woke me up because of how deeply I was asleep. I stood up to get dinner and I had to sit down once before fixing my plate because I was so dizzy. I ate dinner in bed while half asleep. I woke up early at 2:36. I felt very crabby and angry for a few hours but now I feel ok.

This happens when I don’t eat a lot during the day. I end up having meltdowns and episodes like this. Yesterday I barely ate all day until at night. If I could just get my eating habits under control then the other stuff would be under control. That is why I’m being switched to a new therapist. Because mine doesn’t specialize in EDs.