I got into a huge argument with my mom. I said some really bad things you don’t tell someone you have a close relationship with. Like I was viscous with her. I went into my room and I have the door shut and she was on the phone with someone but I don’t know who it was. If it was for my surgery or not. But I think it might have been. But I feel too guilty to go out there now and ask. I’m also super hungry and I need a Valium.

I guess I’m just pissed because she found a $20 bill yesterday and has money from selling the house and i’m living off credit cards. We were at a store today because she thought we had a coupon but we didn’t. I mean it would have been nice if she had given me the $20 so I could buy a few things I needed. I know I’m acting super entitled but I’m freaking out my surgery isn’t going to be paid for by my ****** insurance and I’ll be on a payment plan for 10 years.

Also most of my gift card disappeared and I don’t think I can do anything about it and my Amazon return is nonrefundable even though everything in it was opened.