I’ve had a hellish day.

My mother in law texted me:

Her: “how did today go looking for a new obgyn?”

Me: “Not good. None of the doctors I called took my health plan under Medicaid. I called Medicaid and they were just reading from a script. They didn’t help at all. I have no idea what to do. I’m so scared. Idk who to call or what to do. I need help. I got so stressed out today my head was hurting and my nose started bleeding profusely and I started throwing up blood but I think it was from my nose.”

Ugh. Yea so right now I can’t keep food down again. Maybe from stress this time.

I remember looking in the mirror today while my nose was bleeding a lot into my mouth and I was just crying my heart out. Feeling so alone and scared in my pregnancy. I cried out for God and asked him if I was dying.