So, I have PTSD because of my growing up and I find this teacher attractive, but it's making me lose sleep because I'm petrified and I don't want to go to class if I'm feeling this way. I'm going to anyway because I'm stronger than PTSD, I just pray that I'll be strong enough to not be afraid of being loved or loved intensely. I mean I know it's not about him he couldn't care less I'm just a stupid emotional student but I'd rather not have to confront my fears, but then when do I feel it would be right for me? It sucks, it really does.