@raging vortex I can't imagine going through 9 therapists! Sometimes I call my present therapist my 2nd therapist but I've had 3 Ts + temporary T for DID, unless you count the half dozen in the psychward, which I don't. My 2nd T was a social worker and didn't even seem like a therapist. It was over the phone. Most of the time she didn't say anything lol. Kind of strange feeling not seeing who you're talking to and when they rarely talk. Makes you feel like you're talking to yourself.

As for my present (3rd T) wasn't easy sharing my thoughts with her early on because of what I went through with the first T, but she quickly won over my trust.

And then there's the 4th T, the DID specialists, a temporary T, never meant to replace present T. He's a neuropsychologist (still don't know what that is) and a clinical hypnotherapist. He made me feel so uncomfortable. He's had like a 100 years of experience lol.

Hope you find what you want! One of these days if you feel like it I'd love to hear about your experiences.