Hi!
Yes I do feel very tired. I think it is the work of having to feel so much and contain so much as well as the results in my real life of the c PTSD. I mean my life has been very difficult and it still is very difficult and things that are easy for other people are hard for me so that takes a lot of energy. And if on top of this you don't have a lot of support then there is every reason to feel tired.
I forget things when I'm stressed and having an emotional flashback or perhaps I'm not forgetting them, I'm just too busy to remember them.
I wish you all the best in your continued recovery