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I finally feel recovered from my benzo fiasco a week ago. I'm finally evened-out and sleeping relatively well and steadier emotionally. I'll take a break from meds withdrawal for a while, it was so unpleasant, the benzo fiasco.
I was exhausted after my busy day on Thursday. I always feel so desperate when i overdo it, like i'll feel tired forever. But it's been a couple days with long hours of resting and i feel okay now. I wish i wouldn't panic so when i get tired.
I'm really excited about one of the women in my social group, i'll call her "PF". The more i learn about her, the more i am impressed with her. She's Irish and has all these amusing turns-of-phrases people from the UK have, like "the bees knees" and "the cat's pajamas" and a long time is "for donkey's years"! Haha! It's very amusing.
I wore some of my knitted creations to group last week and it turns out PF's an accomplished knitter, having made hundreds of sweaters. I'm just astounded, i've only made four and each took me three to four months. She's really something, this woman.
I think i've finally found a woman to pattern myself after. She's also ex-military, where she was a journalist. She's a lot older but in good health and she and another woman i like will go swimming on Tuesday. I'm looking forward to it.
I just did so very well in my teens when i had my gym coach to pattern myself after. This coach was very disciplined and had tremendous integrity and decisiveness and authority and it was just so great having someone in my life to admire and imitate, someone who was an example.
Other than that, i've re-discovered candles and am enjoying studying the flames and calming down and relaxing. I love fire! I got out to get dogfood at the vet and had a very amusing time on the bus gawking at people and in the food-court enjoy my cheeseburger and fries.
I made myself a complete dinner, salad and soup with added fish and rice in it. I bought $325 worth of groceries on Thursday and now i am reaping the benefits. It wasn't all food of course, my huge bill. Lots was paper and plastic items and beaucoup pop.
A very pleasant day!
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