A warm welcome and a hug from another new member. Good luck with the job hunting. Really shocked to hear of your earlier experiences, truly awful. I was sexually assaulted at work 4 years ago and consequently suffered the most appaling mental breakdown: see my blog: http://john4.psychcentral.net
A least you can go out: I say that because I'm petrified of doing so, and am locked in my home day and night, but have - fortunately - very kind consultant psychiatrist.
Hope you stay on here.