I’ve been doing ok with the one melatonin a night. Tonight I took a vertigo med to hurry the melatonin along. I know it’s not the best. But I mean, they are prescribed and they seem to make me feel better. The last time I took a melatonin vertigo med combo was on Wednesday night and I didn’t wake up until 7:30 and I was super drowsy but it felt so good to sleep in instead of waking up at 2-4AM. I haven’t taken my geodons yet. I’m waiting until the other stuff kicks in so I can go straight to sleep.

So I did just take a second melatonin. And I still haven’t taken my Geodon yet. I’m about to though since I can feel the other stuff kicking in. I’m holding off as long as possible so I can sleep through my hunger. Which can sometimes come up around 9PM. I went and said hello to my family. Then I felt like the deed was done and I’m back in my room now. My mom kept asking me if I wanted stuff to eat. But I said no. I had noodles a couple hours ago.

My 5 and 7 year old nephews just asked my mom if I was going to eat cake with them. They have commented nicely on my weight loss once before. I don’t know what little kids know about EDs but I assume not much. But who knows what they teach in schools these days. I knew what bulimia was when I was 8 and I knew what anorexia was when I was 10. I first weighed myself when I was 11. The same age I considered going on a lettuce only diet for a week. But then I realized a lettuce diet meant I couldn’t put ranch dressing on it.