For any of those who read my post about my boyfriend breaking up with me... I have to stop harming myself. Aparrently I blamed him for doing it - which I know is not the case at all, if anything, he makes it better - but I know he believed it at the time, and it hurt him.

I need to stop hurting myself now, because I'm losing everything. I need to find another way of releasing my anger (again - not at him like I did the other night). I'm throwing everything out that I use to harm and Im starting over.
I had a dream last night, that I started triggering off in front of him, and he told me that I was doing it, and like in reality, I didnt realise I was doing it and was confused. Instead of getting angry at him, the first thing I did was put my hands up to my face to scratch the hell out of it... but then I realised what I was doing and stopped and just hugged him.

I hope it stays that way

babyg xXx