My life was so chaotic between 26 and around mid-40’s mostly because of being forced fed and Anti-depression meds which kept me in an mixed state. I don’t know what my unmediated self was. But mid 40’s I said no mor meds and calmed. But after a few years I went into a severe depression for over a year I holed up in my apartment avoiding people. Then it changed to mixed and I went to psych ER and met the most wonderful p-doc. He listened to my long rambling tale and agreed the AD were bad for me. He started me on an AP and lamiclol with sleeping pills and after a few months of adjustment I’ve been stable ever since! The AP has led to weight gain but I’m afraid to quit.

What is you favorite calming technique? Mine is a book. I keep trying to read until it clicks then I settle into a book and I can deal with the situation.