I felt like it was me today instead of her. Although my mom said she was being kind of rude. I was going on and talking about stuff and she wasn’t saying anything and I finally stopped talking and I said “your not buying any of this are you?” And she said “no” then I mentioned a picture of Squidward that reminds me of the way she seems and she asked what picture I was talking about and I said one where he can see through everyone’s ********. And she said “yeah that’s how I am” So I don’t know if that was rude of her or not. I thought the conversation was actually kinda funny. But my leg was bouncing up the entire time and I was wringing my hands and I just didn’t really want to do therapy today. we talked about food for some time and we got into talking about CBT and I told her that I don’t think CBT should be used on someone when they are very distressed. I gave an example of last thanksgiving when my old therapist used CBT to the point of angering me. I don’t think my therapist really agreed with me on that. I said CBT confuses me because I can’t tell if I’m being challenged or if my feelings aren’t being validated. And she said 9 out of 10 times I’m being challenged.

But it’s been 1.5 months and on the new therapists wait list I’m still #5. I just called today to check. She only does telehealth too. I’m not surprised by that either. So I have an email into my therapist and I told her what was going on and asked what she wants to do. I haven’t checked my email yet but she probably hasn’t responded.

This therapist kinda seems like one of those therapists that were first one of the asshole staff in a psych hospital and then grew up a bit but are now kinda unprofessional therapists.