Dear T,
Felt really connected in session today. I was thinking about how maybe this relationship has been healing to me, at least since the pandemic started, when you seemed to shift in how you were toward me (and maybe toward all clients, but that doesn't matter). And how maybe that's another aspect of why I'm unsure about potentially switching to twice a week? Even though I know it's completely up to me. I keep feeling like I need to be seeing you 3x a week for the "right" reasons. But what are those reasons exactly? And reasons in whose opinion? I think that if you and I agree they're valid reasons, that's what counts.

I feel some of what we discussed today was important work. Yes, it's in relation to what happened last week, but as we talked about today, it also touches on issues that have affected me throughout my life. And like I said (or maybe you said it, and I agreed), I don't want to take the wrong lessons from what happened.

As I also touched on, I want to be managing better in certain ways before I go to twice a week. I did manage OK (in some senses) doing twice a week the past 2 weeks when you were away for a bit (plus I didn't contact you while you were away), but that was partly with the knowledge that it was temporary. But I want to be better with self-care, exercise, eating, drinking, other forms of self-care, etc. I know that's on me to do. And I feel like I'm more ready for those things. But you also have talked about adding (positive) things in before taking things away. And I think that could apply to sessions as well.

All stuff to talk about Wednesday. And you can tell me what you think as well. Maybe it would help to set some concrete goals/deadlines? Not so much for decreasing sessions, but for other stuff, and then I can be accountable to you (as well as to myself)? We've discussed that before, but never officially put anything in place. So perhaps we could try?

Love,
LT