So Sorry you're feeling so bad! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that you're still relatively young. Life isn't over for you so i'd suggest to make the most out of it. M. Please be kind to yourself and do try to make yourself happy also. M. Of course be kind to others also. Remember that you are important. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Be Good. Love. Stay Safe and Be Good. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @AgentQ9A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!