59no, I am sorry things are so hard for you now at home. So many parents do put the kids in the middle when they are having trouble getting along with each other.

Would you be able to tell your mother any of this? Could you tell her just one thing? Like maybe, "Mom, when you say bad things about Dad, I feel upset (sad, angry, hurt...). I love you both very much and it hurts to hear you say those things. I don't want to have to choose who I love more."

Here is a book that was useful to both me and my daughter (about your age) when her father and I were splitting up:
Mom's House, Dad's House for Kids: Feeling at Home in One Home or Two

Even though your parents aren't divorced, you may find some good advice in that book. There is also an adult version of the book, if your parents ever reach that stage.

Good luck. I hope you come back and visit and let us know how you're doing.