Been feeling depressed lately. It seems like I should feel excited and euphoric because I have a trip coming up next month. But I have some anxiety about the trip since I'm going by myself. Also, this is more like a business trip than a "fun" trip. The reason I say it's business is because I'm going to the area to see if I want to move there.

The thing I'm feeling the most depressed about is the idea that I have to leave where I am now because things are not going well. It's not going well because: I quit my job three months ago because it went bad, I can't afford to stay, my social life here is nothing much to "write home about", and the state politics is a mess and the voters still support those awful politicians. They just don't get it.

This morning my sister called. Last week I got upset with her because she called me about a house for sale in her area and I was never wanted to move there for various reasons. It's not just that but we've been arguing a lot. She can't understand it when I say "no" on things. So just now I told her that I don't want to continue with the phone calls anymore. I'm just tired of having a lot of stupid arguments. I feel bad about this.