Things have been rough, of course I do have some good dadys as well, well as best as they will get. Then I have been having these pains in my pelvic area. I had to go to urgent care for it a few weeks ago and followed up with my doctor who then sent me to a surgeon. It is possible I have even more damage from the assault last year than we thought. I may have a hernia from the surgery or some type of infection. I also had to have a catscan done last thursday for this and they found something on it and soi now I have to go today for an ultrasound. It is a very scary thing to have to sit with over the weekend. I tried not to think about it but it came up anyway. I have been so worried and so scared, I am afraid this guy is going to end up killing me anyway, he almost did last year, but he may win. That's how I am taking it. I just really am hurting.

Jennifer