So Sorry things are being so hard also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i think i can at least partly relate to you not feeling much on an emotional level. It does seem like you're going through a lot right now. Do you feel like there's any particular event in your Life that's making you feel this way or not?Perhaps it may be useful to contact a therapist if possible. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Please do try to take care of yourself and others by doing something you like and Helping out others in need. Be Kind. Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @moodyblue83, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!