I’m not having the best day. But this one is unusually bad. Basically my therapist abandoned me. She doesn’t have any openings until the 6th. I told her I really needed to see her the week of the surgery. She replied this morning and said she doesn’t have anything but I’m a priority for a cancellation. What bugs me is that she didn’t say “good luck during your surgery” or “I hope it goes well. I’ll be thinking of you.” She didn’t mention anything like that and it just makes me feel like she really doesn’t care. I got my flu shot today. The flu shot makes me really sick for a couple days. But it takes 2 weeks to work and I already feel like crap mentally and I also don’t have any plans for the next 2 days so I just felt like today was the time to get it. The pharmacy was crabby and slow but not at my mom and I. The pharmacist giving the shot to me was confused by me with all that legal name and gender stuff vs how I physically look. But there wasn’t an issue. Right now I’m just tired but I’ve been tired. Then my gynecologists office called and insurance submitted the wrong date so it got denied so now they have to submit it again. I’m freaking out but my mom and the lady at the office didn’t seem concerned. So I don’t know how long this will take to get straightened out but I just can’t deal with much more right now. Especially with not getting any support from my therapist. I told my mom before we moved I was concerned about the mental health support here. That was the only reason I didn’t want to move. And the mental health stuff is actually ******. I want to do something about my therapist but I don’t know what to do. I want to complain to someone but I’m not sure that will get me anywhere. I want to really ***** at her through email which I may very well do. Even if it’s not the best idea. But this is just a really ****** thing of her to do at this time for me. There is no denying she’s a closet phobe transphobic person. But I don’t get why she can’t just try to hide how she feels until I get into see the new therapist .