Hi Fearandloathing40, I can really relate to what you're struggling with. I just joined to try to keep out of chat rooms and chat with people that are dealing with the same kind of struggles. I've relapsed a few times, I always seem to fall back into the same habits. Have you tried medications? I just went to a doctor and got prescribed Zoloft, I told her I had saw where it recommends SSRIs. She said its that, mood stabilizers, or something that alcoholics use, I forget the name. Just took my first pill. Kinda paranoid :P

Its supposed to decrease libido, but other scary side effects too. Might just try switching to the mood stabilizers if I don't like these.