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Slept well on 5mg Valium. Feel okay today but i think my social group is going out for lunch and i wasn't invited. The woman who sends out the invites "forgot" me last time too for the BBQ. Once is a mistake, twice is a pattern.
Whatever, i'll attend the social hour and if they invite me to go along after to lunch i will. Just hate having to clamor for attention. Just want respect. I'm a regular member and the organizer and i have had private events...
It just seems purposeful. I rejected her as a friend so she might have hard feelings towards me. I'm perfectly happy to see her in group settings, i just can't tolerate her one-on-one and a lot of that is me and my stuff and my own fragility. I explained that to her when i declined to keep meeting with her but she might still be angry.
Whatever.
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