I feel more steady today......stable maybe. Some hallucinations (auditory) this morning. No visuals today yet. Although I am living in shadows because I have my office lights turned off. (migraine). IOP tonight. I had a good two day break from IOP so I am ready for the intensity. I'm worried about my T appointment tomorrow because we gotta talk about why I relapsed. Maybe she will have some good suggestions on what to do with the hallucinations when the dang voices just don't stop! I wish I had an "off" button in my head that I could turn off when the voices keep going. I can handle some but not all day. It gets like overwhelming. And of course the urge to SH comes because it stops the voices if I engage in the behavior. But today I feel pretty relaxed. At least at the moment. I got two big tasks done at work! (Yeah me!) And I haven't even taken any anxiety medication today so far. I probably will tonight but not yet. Oh and I got a shower yesterday. I needed it. And I feel better. I plan to get one on Sunday. So if I can do Sunday's and Wednesday's that's not too bad.