Every September I want to go on a drinking binge. I've just noticed the pattern when I was tempted to stop at the liquor store and I realized it's been a year since I last had that urge. It's purely self destructive, I get absolutely nothing positive out of drinking and 10/10 times I end up cutting and crying. But for some reason that sounds tempting? I'm not going to. I'm on valium and loads of other meds and I'm pretty sure I'd die.
I don't know why September.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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