It sucks but some things aren't fixable. After my first husband backhanded me I was done. His affairs were stressful but I survived them hitting me was the nail in the coffin. He begged me apologized, but a line was crossed. Sometimes I wish I was more forgiving but than I hear it's really unforgivable. He'd repeat the abuse. And likely has with his wife who has stayed. Anyway you'll meet someone, move on. Keep healing yourself. She may return but unlikely. Some lines once crossed break the marriage forever.