I’ve still been waking up at 4:30. Last night I took about 50mil of melatonin. 3 different kinds. I fell asleep quickly. Then I woke up at 4:30 feeling no physical affect from the melatonin. I just felt frustration at the time. I had to stay in my room for 1.5 hours so I wouldn’t wake anyone up. Then I got up but I didn’t take a shower right away.

All I can take is melatonin or else I get frantic like hungry. I’ve tried unisom and Benadryl and both caused me to eat massively. My Pdoc still thinks I’m taking the remeron. Which I’m not because it caused me to gain 14 pounds in 2 weeks and the weight gain is one of the reasons I ended up in IOP in December 2020.