I just felt I should point that out.

I'm very fragile lately, but if I'm overreacting, I refuse to apologize. I am going to go out on a limb (bears can climb trees) and say that it hurts terribly to feel used, and even more terribly to feel ignored. I do a lot for folks here. A good portion of it is behind the scenes, to be sure, and I am not boastful or a braggart, nor do I believe that it's anybody else's business except mine and the person I'm helping. But you know? When people tell me how they look forward to my posts and how valuable I am, and then the only person to respond to a Kudos thread is the person who posted it -- 12 hours after it was posted -- it hurts.

In case you haven't noticed in the 4+ years I've been here -- I only sort-of have it together -- and while I try to project being OK -- it's a self-protective mechanism. I have dealt with and overcome a fair bit, it's true. But that doesn't mean I've solved *everything,* and just because I focus on giving others support and attention doesn't mean I don't need it myself. Underneath the pseudo-hard-hearted exterior is a mushy, emo, sad and scared bear who could use a little love....



CB