I feel like I am going to explode with anxiety. I need a double Valium after just taking one and I think I need to get my weekly shot tonight instead of tomorrow night because Fridays can often be bad because it’s been 6 days without my shot. And I don’t want to get it early tomorrow morning because it makes me hungry. I’m not sure if that’s how it really works but I do feel more anxious and on edge the night before my shot. But I am just out of control and I’m not sure what else to do at this point besides take more meds. I am really really hoping this will be the last time I deal with my PMDD. I just need to make it until Monday when I get my supposed period. This month my PMDD has been pretty unusually bad.

Edit: Ok so I took 2 Valium which is still only 5 today. Not like the other week when I took 6. Then I took a couple of my other meds. My mom says she’ll do the shot tonight. I ate a birthday cake flavored macaroon with my meds because I haven’t eaten much today due to anxiety. So hopefully that helps the meds along and I can calm down for the night.

I went as far back as page 28 on this thread which was at the start of august. And I have not been stable mental health wise for a long long time.

My supposed period is actually on the 19th. Not the 20th. I just counted. Which may be why I have been especially unstable and anxious these last 3 days and why my weight hasn’t moved and why I haven’t slept well. So I’m hoping if I get the shot tonight then I’ll feel ok at least regarding that part of things and I’ll be able to make it until Sunday.

Edit again: I got my shot and I ate a tablespoon of peanut butter. I’m not sure which, I’m guessing the peanut butter combined with all that Valium, but I feel chilled right now for the first time all day. Peanut butter is my go to food for when my anxiety gets tough and I need to eat something legit. I don’t remember who I heard it from but I’ve heard peanut butter is good for helping meds work.