Dear IOP T--J, your asking me to see my SH wounds in session has left me feeling vulnerable and unprotected even though I chose to comply. I am a people pleaser. You wanted to see, I showed you. But I always feel like they aren't good enough (bad enough). Your clinical attitude didn't help either. I wish you could say something empathetic about it. Something like, "I'm sorry you were hurting so much," would have sufficed. I know you can't. It's like some therapist rule that you can't be human about it. You have to stay all clinical and in your head. I do appreciate the advice on how to take care of the wounds, not that I don't already know that, I just haven't done it. Hmmm, perhaps I am feeling not worthy of being taken care of. That could have been explored. Still you said I was "delightful" and that made me feel good. I do think you'll be a good T (she's an intern or in training or something). Just remember to get to know the person first before you make them have a contract. Remember that for your next person. I'm sure a lot depends on the agency you work for, but I think it would serve you and them! better if you did that. Still I connected with you which I didn't want to do considering this is short term. I've not rapport built this much this quick ever. I guess you'll be good at this kind of work. Too bad it was a Zoom appointment, and you are at your house, I kind of wanted to hug you. I didn't bring that up because what would be the point, but I sure did want to hug you at the end. Especially when you were concerned if you had been empathetic enough. You're a nice lady. HUGS, since I can say this here, Kit
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