So Sorry things are being so hard also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i am afraid i agree with the wise and wonderful Aviza in that some things are not easy to fix so you may want to accept it also. In any case i'd suggest to talk about it with her and make her understand that you want to genuinely improve. Perhaps couple counseling or individual therapy for you or both of you may prove to be useful. Please do be kind to yourself and others. m. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Love. Be ALWAYS VERY Kind. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Sneaker091, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!