Thank you everyone! Those are all incredibly insightful answers!

I suppos i just constantly over analyze things and I don't want to make a big fuss or inconvenience any of my family. I know it's childish to associate going to a therapist as meaning you have something wrong with you, but it took my being suicidal to get my mom to even consider taking me to a counselor for 5 weeks, so I never really felt like, unless you had a serious problem, that you should go.

But I appreciate real answers from people who have been there. I'm starting my search for a good therapist, I don't know when or if I'll find one, but I think that is the best course of action right now, and to take it slow.

~Ally