I think that it has to do with ...do you ever feel...leav the ***** thinga lone.

Do you enjoy sex with him or you feel like you hate it and doing it because you hate it?

I think that the guilty feeling may come from a subconcious thought that you deserve more respect than having to please your hasband sexually to get things you want from him!

I agree wiht pinksoil - what is it that you want? why can`t he be a good nice loving hasband? why don`t you have the freedom to do WHATEVER you want?

He doesn`t have the right t control you!

I think it may come also because you are FAKING sothing that you know can be a happy and lovely experience...and you are not exactly being your honest self...i think that it`s a respec issue..

You can do with your husband whatever you want....but you say you want him and he may feel complimented and just give you what you want because of that.

I think that if you feel guilty then stop this behaviour. You deserve a better attitude ....You should speak frankly and get what you want....