I was pretty pissed this morning when I woke up. Then I decided to give myself a cheat day regarding my diet because all this restriction this week was really setting me off. So I feel better now. I went to Dunkin’ Donuts and I ordered a pumpkin cream cold brew and an Oreo hot chocolate. The coffee was really burnt. And the cream at the top looked a bit off. So I went to a gas station for a couple 99 cents sodas. This gas station is a bit shady but they have a good selection of bottled sodas and a good fountain drink selection and their prices are cheap. When I ask my mom if we can go to the shady gas station she knows which one I’m talking about.

I looked up how much hysterectomies cost. The one I’m getting is a bit under $9 thousand roughly. So a payment plan with that wouldn’t be bad. My mom says I’m jumping to conclusions. Especially since the surgery is out patient and I’m not staying overnight. So she says that makes it even easier for it to be covered by insurance.

But I know I can’t keep feeling this way every month. Today is my last day of PMDD thankfully. It hasn’t been too bad besides the cravings. I got my shot late yesterday afternoon and that usually makes me feel stable the next day. So I’m guessing that’s why I don’t feel the PMDD much.

I took my 20mil of Geodon just now. Instead of taking the entire 180 mil at night. I’m hoping it helps to keep my anxiety low. 20mil doesn’t make me tired. I’ve only taken one Valium surprisingly. Usually I’m on my second one by now.