Thank you, @ElectricManatee. I asked for the thread to be removed because I felt that my use of cowardice/bravery had been misunderstood by several posters, as well as how intimacy and boundaries work (for me). It felt like there was too much for me to try and re-define and explain. The points about me attempting a sexual relationship with my therapist were particularly hard to stomach as I have a history of sexual exploitation from a doctor and I didn't want to read that kind of stuff. I am sorry that we missed the opportunity to be flummoxed together! I would have found that valuable. Maybe I will post a less personal thread about the machinations of relational therapy.