I could be coping better but I don’t think I’m doing terribly. I was moody and crabby early this morning. Then again around noon. At noon I was actually quite angry and a bit S. But I took a nap which helped a lot. I tried spreading out my Geodon and for the most part except for the second dose at noon it worked well. I’m not able to use the coping skill I want to. I lost something I need and I can’t find it anywhere. I tried reading and I got through less then a sentence before giving up on it. But I didn’t go over on my Valium. I only took the 3 I’m prescribed. I was gonna double up but that’s when I fell asleep instead.

I avoided the store by doing online shopping instead. I gave myself a cheat day from my diet for my mental health sakes. I didn’t feel like having a meltdown from restricting.

So I’m not coping that bad. I know what I want and what will and won’t work. but I still think things could have been better today.

I did do something really mean for no reason at all and I think it was pretty obvious to the person I did it to.