For years I used to literally be debilitated with my mental illness now I'm doing my own work and doing my own chores. I'm happy about that but when I think about having relationships I just think to myself who is gonna want someone crazy like me with all these codependency and addictive behaviours like being on social media a lot. I mean I just think the man is gonna need the patience of a saint. It hurts because I want kids one day but I don't think that's ever gonna happen because of my issues. Just praying that my problems don't stop me from having a happy life with lots of love and kids. I just want that and it's hard to deny how I feel when I look at babies and think man I want that too.