I have a date after I talk to the benefits specialist today. I'm scared. Like, I'm lonely and want love, intimacy, friendship, wherever it goes, but I'm afraid I'm just going to get hurt again. I don't want to go. I mean, I want to go, but relationships are like really scary rollercoasters to me. Like Cyclone at Six flags new england before it was revamped (wicked sketchy wooden rollercoaster) where you think you're going to die and you leave hurting.