Thanks, Breaking Dawn, for your support for it seems it will be the story of my life that I will be taking a lot of crap but hardly get anything good in return. laughs. That's how God played it for me. I kind of hate myself right now. It's like I'm part of the unhappiness of life if you get me. Part of me wants to set myself apart from all the drama and I just don't feel like being much of a part of my siblings lives because what is the use of depending on them for interaction. I don't want to do that anymore because nothing ever goes right. sorry to say. I'd love to get this real twirling baton to make me feel 'richer' and more apart from this stupid ordinary live for nothing life. I'm just expressing my views.