Hi, AnotherDayx, and welcome to My Support Forums. I think there's always hope that things will get better. I have bipolar and have experienced lots of depression--but I've been on good meds and go to a therapist and have been stable for a long time. How about trying the online counseling? I think you'll like someone to talk to and to help you get treatment.

I think I lived with low-grade depression for a good part of my childhood and teenage years.

I personally think life has a lot to offer. (I'm 66 now--and am writing books, something I've wanted to do for a long time.) I also try to help people and have fun with travel and getting together with friends, etc.

By all means, feel free to vent here. We care, and many of us have been where you are.