It’s not really the surgery except for all the tubes and stuff. it’s mainly the post op depression I’m worried about. I got it so bad during both of my top surgeries. The first one last October I was in a deep depression for a few months. I felt like my personality was changed and I felt like I was living inside someone I did not recognize. Plus I didn’t realize the swelling would take months to go down so I was concerned about my results when I first saw them and I felt like they were still there. I know this surgery will make me stable mentally and I won’t have these freak outs as often. Plus I won’t have the pain. But I’m worried about recovery. My therapist is not being helpful. I can not believe the level of unprofessionalism from her right now. I haven’t gotten an email from her yet. My mom doesn’t understand why she called her and said she’d email me right away but didn’t. I was super excited about the news and I wanted to share it with her so she’d be happy for me.