L, Where are you? You told me your schedule on Fridays is until 4:30pm. I called you at 3pm. I've waited almost 6 hours for you. I know you're not a 24/7 therapist. I know you have a life. But I called during you supposed work hours. And sometimes you email me late Friday nights. Why won't you contact me tonight? I really need you. I'm not safe, and H won't let me go to the hospital. He says I have to talk to you, but you aren't there! Am I too much for you? I know we did a double session today. Did I wear you out? Are you mad at me? L, I need you! Please be there. I'm scared...of myself tonight. And of life. I'm sorry we're having financial problems. I'm sorry if I've become a burden. I don't mean to be. You're all I got.