Dear T,
I've made it 24 hours without emailing you, but it's been a struggle. I wish I didn't get so hung up on things like this. I wanted you to maybe joke about it, to reassure me it was OK. Like, "As you can see, I survived my commute to and from the office the last two days" with a grin. But you just seemed...I don't know. I'm not sure how to explain it. But I think the way you seemed--body language, what you chose to talk about, your reaction to my explanation, etc.--I feel that's it's all combined to lead me to have this reaction. Plus other stuff going on lately not related to you. I just wish I could calm down. Part of me wants to reach out because often the mere act of reaching out calms me down. But I'm worried about annoying you. And that you'll say something really distanced and clinical in return, and then I'll feel bad. When what would really help right now is something more warm or light, like with a smiley emoji at the end to make it clear you're OK with it.
Love,
LT