It's been a very long time since I have checked in here. This year has been very hard I lost many good friends by passing away. They where all close to me and finding out has been difficult. My therapist got covid19 in April so she was unable to see me for 3 months. last month I got very ill from a bad sun burn and the vaccine. Slowly im getting better and feel really depressed. I find it's very hard to be motivated.