yesterday started off okay. i was excited and looking forward to next week-> beautiful weather sunday thru wednesday with above average temps! and the best part was i had no plans/appts. (just one small one, date TBD) i was excited about spending time outside! (the outdoors person i am)

THEN, in less than two hours that afternoon, it all went to h**l!! two follow-up appts that had to be on monday & wednesday! then i was hoping to schedule that small one on monday too (different facility), so i moved up my monday appt by 3 hours, giving all afternoon to fit the other one in.
then i was crushed when the person on the phone told me it HAD to be done tuesday morning!!!


i was literally crushed!! there just went my whole week- the mon/wed appts are about 20 miles away (one-way), but the tuesday one is not quite 50 miles away (one-way)! so it's not just being busy with appts, there's travel time as well!!! plus by moving my monday appt up, i literally will lose 3 hours of sleep!

i just felt crushed, pissed, angry..... i still feel those and defeated as well. what would have been a great time to just relax and enjoy things, has been completely crushed! and i'm busy all day thursday with a medical procedure, so it literally destroyed my whole week!

i just........ maybe needed to vent.