Among other things I can’t have I can’t have tea. I drink a lot of tension tamer tea and it helps my anxiety a lot. I tried pumpkin spice hot chocolate instead and it didn’t really work out. I have about 40 pages of one of my books left and I just can’t concentrate on it. I’m reading 3 books at one time and one of the other ones I’m more then halfway through. I’m just a bit anxious right now. Plus I ate pizza for lunch and my mouth feels weirdly tingly right now. But I think whatever UTI think I have is starting to go away.

I just feel a bit anxious and a bit depressed and I wish I had something legit to get rid of my anxiety. The only thing that has really helped it lately it is my 160 mil of Geodon but I can’t take that for another few hours. I did take my 20 mil Geodon at noon and I just doubled up on a Valium. So far I just feel weird still.

I tried limiting my caffeine today. I had a couple Cokes just so I wouldn’t go through withdrawals. I got a Pepsi for lunch and I took about 3 sips of it before it became too much for my anxiety. I don’t have any caffeine free soda except for some European Fantas I was hoping to save. so I guess I’m stuck with the hot chocolate. Which says 99.9% caffeine free on the box

My paperwork says I shouldn’t drink soda after my surgery. So much for stocking up and saving limited edition bottles of soda. I thought I’d drink them after the surgery so I’d have something to look forward to.

I need to do laundry and I’m neglecting it because I don’t have the energy. Also since its fall I have even more laundry because of my hoodies.

In 13 minutes I can take half my night meds. The ones that don’t make me tired. Maybe they will help and I can get back into my reading.